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ThaMonthly 

3.30.23

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Tha Endo Effect

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By Chrys D



‘For This Life I Cannot Change…

…Hidden Hills, deep off in a main.’

Since having my fibroid surgery in 2017, my fear was having to ever be cut on again.

My guilty pleasure is binging medical shows like Chicago Med, House & The Resident. Although I enjoy these way too much, I’m still MORTIFIED of needles, anesthesia & going under, & the ultimate– death.


At the time of this blog post, I’m approximately 13 days away from having my 2nd operation due to Endometriosis (March 30). I don’t let it show outwardly, but yet again I’m petrified. I’m a little older now, & things aren’t the same as 6 years ago.


My body has seen so many changes. Age & weight is its biggest foe. Obedience with it hasn’t always been my strong suit. However, my vow is to take things slower, & be infinity times more intentional with my health.

See y'all on the other side.

Update.

On Monday, March 20th, I was told by my gynecologist that she would not do the surgery due to my ‘inadequate’ health insurance.

Up until the past couple of days, I bled daily for the better part of two almost three months.

I discontinued receiving care from said doctor, & I am looking forward to finding a new doctor & taking a more holistic approach with my body and health.

To all of my Endo Warriors, I pray that Endometriosis Awareness Month was better to you than it was to me. 


As always Love, & Thanks for Vibing with ThaMonthly.





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